Tuesday, August 27, 2013

things about me

the random thoughts that have been floating around in my brain today.

- I am not good at thank you notes.  I want to be.  But, I'm not.  I can usually do a thank you email, text, video, or in-person gushing, but to actually write something out and stamp it and mail it?  It never happens.

- I would like to be someone who can drink their coffee black - but I never will be.  I ran out of cream this weekend and haven't made coffee since...I wonder if that's why I have this headache, now that I think about it.

- I hate waiting for the toast to pop up.  It scares me every time.  Same for opening cans of biscuits...I have quite the set up in order to do it....it usually involves covering the can with a towel and whacking it from across the kitchen with a broomstick while I cover my ears with one shoulder and one hand.

- I wish I could make all my own food all the time, and that I could afford to buy the best and freshest foods.  But, there is still convenience foods in my pantry and always will be.

- I think it would be fun to get a well designed and meaningful tatoo, but I never will.  Not because I'm scared of the tattoo, but because I am entirely too indecisive to do anything that permanent.

- I don't use shaving cream, or good razors.  Just water and the disposables.  Mostly because I'm cheap.

- I'd like to be someone who cloth diapers - but, again, I never will be.  Mostly because I'm lazy....but hats off to everyone else who can get their act together.

- I don't know if we'll ever find a house to buy, but whenever we look at one - I look for good photography light before I count the bathrooms.

- I need to get my wisdom tooth out.

- I'm a morning person for sure...but few things feel as good as crawling into bed at night.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013


At the most random moments, it hits me, like a bag of bricks...but happier - that I have three THREE wonderful girls.  It's incredible.


How did I get so lucky to have them entrusted to me?

I have no idea, but they fill me with so much joy that I could burst - and I hope they know that somehow.  I hope they know they mean the world to me.

Abby is growing up so quickly. It pains and excites me to watch her blossom into an amazing girl. I'm so proud of her.  She is so kind and empathetic...and sometimes bossy - but just the way a big sister is supposed to be.  She's protective.

Elizabeth amuses me with her antics and completely melts me with her eye-squinting grin.  She gives the BEST hugs.  She hugs with everything she's got.  She impresses me with her physical skills and keeps me laughing with her general craziness

Madeline nestles quietly into the crook of my arm, buries her nose in my sleeve and relaxes.  She stretches every limb when she's unswaddled, blinks 10 times, looks at me and grins. She is nothing but sweet and easy and soft and she smells like honey.  She makes my heart palpitate with gratitude. I have to restrain myself from kissing her all day.

This life I have - even with it's stressors and day to day parenting battles, financial woes, and hard moments - is fantastic.  I'm so thankful for it.  May I never take a day for granted.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013


Madeline is nearly 2 months old now...I guess that happens next week.  I feel like we're just starting to get into something that resembles a routine around here.  Between having a new newborn and vacation, it's only now that the dust is getting a chance to settle.

I'm still trying to figure out Madeline's sleeping schedules.  Maybe not figure out as much as mainstream.  She sleeps, she wakes, she eats and smiles and then she's ready to sleep again about an hour after she wakes up.  Sometimes that stretches to an hour and a half or 2 hours - but rarely.  In the mornings, she wakes up and goes down for her first nap 45 mins later.  So - the times between naps are relatively consistent, but the time on the clock changes a little day to day.  At any rate, a large percentage of my days are spent swaddling, rocking, nursing, and putting her paci back in to settle her back to slumber when she fusses.

She does cry - but, really?  Only when she's hungry or tired.  She's otherwise, such an easy baby.  I dare say she's at least as easy as Abby was if not easier.  Definitely easier than E was.  In hindsight, that shouldn't shock me. E was a pretty easy baby, but just not as completely chill as Abs was.

Madeline doesn't have any constant nicknames yet.  There are several we toss around with reckless abandon.  The most common is when we mimic E's pronunciation of "Madi-Lion"  Baby Jane, Sweetie, and a barrage of nonsense names that Abby throws at her "Good morning, you little pickle-goose"  and the like.

Overall, this transition to 3 kids has gone well.  It's been smoother than I've expected.  I'm thankful for that for sure.

I was actually going to write about our day.  But, I'm drawing a blank on anything blog worthy to write about.  We fed our frogs new crickets.  They were bigger crickets, and it was unsettling to watch the frogs eat something nearly as big as they are.  I don't think I'll watch next time, I feel too bad for the crickets.  The frogs have been fun, but I think I'm ready to let them go.  Abby won't like that, so it may take a few weeks to work up to that.

I had my official post-baby check up today and all was well.  Now it's time to strap on my running shoes and find (I know, I know *make*) time to run again.  Or...maybe jog.  I'm not looking forward to rebuilding all the endurance I've lost...but I am looking forward to dropping 20 lbs.

That's about it for us today.  I'm tired, so I'm gonna wrap things up here, do my last pumping and cleaning duties for the night and go to bed. :)

logistically speaking

I've discovered a new problem that's keeping me from blogging as much as I'd like.  And, it's actually not having three kids or time management or something like that.

It's the iPad.

Kyle got me an iPad mini for our anniversary and I love it.  And much in the same way that Elizabeth looked so much bigger and older when Madeline was born - my laptop now seems an archaic hunk of plastic...or whatever this thing is made of.  The problem, of course, is that while I strongly prefer using the iPad for browsing and reading - I don't love it for typing long things like blogs.

And so, when the kids are all in bed, and I sit down - I grab the iPad and I read or browse, but I don't blog.

I compose blogs in my head everyday, and I'm always surprised when I realize I never wrote any of them down.  It's sad, and I really need to do better with it, because I won't remember these days if I don't.  They're too fast.

that said -

Life is good.  We took our vacation to Cocoa Beach and had a great time--

(baby just started crying...that is another reason I don't blog often, I guess)

(ok, I'm back)

The girls are doing well.  Abby got her first haircut before vacation - just a trim.  It was a positive experience for her - it was a sad one for me.  I secretly wish we hadn't cut it...but it so needed it. Elizabeth is just growing and growing.  That includes molars, which is what we're blaming some recent epic tantrums on.  When she's not tantruming or whining, she's adorable.

Madeline is a super baby.  She is sleeping great, which is really the only thing we have to judge her by. She goes down at 6:30pm at the latest and wakes between 6 and 7am.  I usually give her a small bottle once during the night - around 3 or 4 am most night.  She naps well and is generally just still sleepy...but she's smiling now, and that is super super awesome.

(she's fussing again....I guess she didn't want her paci...She probably wants to wake up from her nap)

Ok.  I'm gonna sign off.  I'll try to open this big 'ol heavy laptop more often so I can document our days in actual detail instead of large sweeping hand gestures.