There are lots of things I "wannabe" and what I wannabe usually depends on my mood. But so often I only get around to being part of that thing. I wanna be "crunchie" - meaning green - meaning earth friendly. But, I'm the kind of person who buys the reusable grocery bag and never remembers to use it. I drive my little suv to the whole foods store when I could take public transit. I drive to work when I could walk. I reuse my water bottle, but I don't save my soda cans (in my defense, our area doesn't have recycling handy - but I could still take them somewhere). See what I mean?
I want to be a put together professional in my field. So I got my nice computer bag/briefcase, I have my "go and look important" suit to wear, I do my best on most things I do - but I still can't figure out how to get to work on time with a baby and I still procrastinate on things that allow me to do so.
Sometimes I want to be a stay at home mom. Part of me loves this idea, and part of me knows that its a much harder job than the one that pays our bills at the moment. Maternity leave was hard. Much harder than work. I know that's not true for everyone, but it was for me. Yet, I still daydream about staying at home and raising the kid(s?)
I want to be back in shape. I'm working on that - it's getting better, but it's a long road to the end of that goal.
I want to live a cute little American suburban life and I also want to live in the city, and in the country. I want a nice modern house, and I want a big victorian house full of character, and sometimes I just want an apartment.
Sometimes I think I want to be wealthy - but mostly I just want to be financially stable. Not that I would turn wealth down ...for anybody reading who was planning on writing me a check of some sort.
Having said all that, there are a few things that I know I want to be for sure. I want to be a good mom and a good wife. I'm still new at both, but I think I'm starting to get a better idea of those roles. It's a process. :)
And today I took Abs to the grocery store with me. She rode in her Ergo carrier strapped to my chest, I brought my reusable grocery bag AND we took the train. So, there's hope for me yet. Maybe.
Anyway. Just ramblidge. Hope everyone has had a good Monday.
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Feel the joy today brings. I love you.
Granny
Ricky and I are reading a book...well, I'm a wannabe too because I looked over it thoroughly at the bookstore, bought it, and he's actually reading it right now. Anyway, it's called Food Matters: A guide to conscious eating by Mark Bittman. It's good. It's not a cheesy book but instead talks about the impact of what we eat on us and on the earth (I know that sounds cheesy), but it's framed in a real practical way. And it has some great recipes and tips for eating healthier. I personally think it's worth the investment...and is helping in some of our "wannabes."
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